Tuesday, August 4, 2015

What being an inspiration is

I have made no secret on my social media feeds what all I have been through, sharing on both my Twitter and Facebook accounts. The problem with social media is you get the "sunny" version of everything. No one wants to be perceived as a "whiner" or a "debbie downer". Amputation is no joke. It is not "sunny". It is a frustrating, annoying condition. It's not horribly painful, like a cancer. It is just plain old annoying. I cannot just go "do" what I want to do. I have to think about every step that I need to accomplish before I start. It is hard to break 50 years of habit, but I am overcoming it. I am sure that I will succeed.

What bothers me the most, though is when people say I am an inspiration to them. I understand what they mean, I project a good attitude in the face of adversity. I reach my goals. I don't whine publicly in my social media feeds. I don't even whine on this blog, which I started simply to have a forum to say some of the things I was thinking without polluting facebook with my frustrations. I understand this.

I see myself as the result of my choices. This should inspire people to NOT be like me. I made poor choices in my lifestyle, my eating habits, my exercise habits. I chose not to listen to several doctors along the way, neglect my diabetes and fail to take any of it seriously. When I lacerated my foot all the way to the bone, I did not go off to the emergency room. I did my own first aid, and hid the fact that I was hurt from my entire family until it became so bad that I could not hide it any longer.  Once I fessed up, and started taking it seriously, it was a long hard fight just to save my life. I had to sacrifice 10% of my body to keep my life.  I am grateful that I was provided such a great surgeon, nursing staff, rehab staff and physical therapists along the way that got me through the ordeal, as well as a great prosthetitist, and after care facilitators that have guided me along the way.

I should be an inspiration to others, for the way I handle my current adversity. I should be an inspiration to others to avoid the stupidity of denial. To inspire others to avoid the dangers of MRSA, Diabetes and take wounds seriously. But more than all of that is to provide an example of what not to do so that others may avoid the path I took.
I would not wish MRSA on the worst enemy of mankind. In fact, I will shout from the rooftops that humanity had better pay attention to the little devil before he takes us out completely. I nearly lost my life to MRSA, I survived. I am forever scarred and disabled because I did not take precautions, or have the information at hand to avoid it. Even the health care workers that I was seeing did not take it as seriously as they should have.

This is what needs to change. We, as human beings, need to bring awareness of how deadly MRSA is, and INSPIRE others to continue to educate and eradicate this bacteria from the face of planet earth!

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